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I have been scribbling
for a long time now . I first began to write verse when I was about nine years old . Mostly on odd scraps of paper
which I hid from my parents , for I was ashamed to have them know that I
indulged in what my father called useless things . They were silly little
verses , and
none of them have survived . My mother once found some bits of
paper and asked what they were . I said they were nothing and she threw
them away . My father moved house in the 1960's and in the cleanup resulting
from that , all remaining bits of my papers were thrown away . This included
some old
school books and notes on various hobbies such as model aeroplanes
and radio
(wireless we called it in those days) .
I joined the army and continued
to write in a desultry sort of way , keeping such work for a little while and then throwing it away
as I was posted from station to station . From what I can remember of
it , this work was naive , immature and bad . It richly deserves its fate .
During my time
in the army I soldiered in Germany , the Middle East , and parts
of Africa .
During my service abroad I began to write a few things that (I
thought) were
better than my previous efforts . I have been able to save a
few of my
papers from those times , mostly serious technical work such
as notes for
various courses and a few essays (attempts at self education)
. Along with
these were a small quantity of verse . While in the army , and a
single soldier in barracks , I began to be more
serious in my studies and in the extra time I could find I became
more
serious about writing verse and the study of esoteric philosophy
, making
some progress in each of these things . I left the army in 1972
and up to
that time my output of verse was low and sometimes at a standstill
. However
I did manage to write some verses that were not too bad . After
leaving the
army I went abroad to teach technical subjects in the training
college of
the Royal Saudi Air Force . I was still writing verse between
intervals of
inactivity and managed to produce some verse that I have kept
, and a great
deal that I have destroyed . I retired from work for medical
reasons in 1988 and came to live on the
Hebridean Island of Vatersay where the quiet pace of life suits
me . In
these subsequent years I have written more verse on a variety
of subjects ,
even some on Zen philosophy . Currently my output is rather higher
than it
has been in the past . Why this should be so I do not know .
It may be that
I write better in quiet surroundings and in retrospect . Anyhow
, here is
some of it , warts and all . These verses are extracts from a
body of work
that extends over three volumes . I do not claim it is good verse
, but I
think it is readable .
E .
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